growing up..

don't get my last post wrong.

i am very much ready, and excited, and happy, and very much in love.

sometimes, growing up, is just hard.

i have had many places in my life which have made me "grow up"

all of these which have made me the person i am today.

i sometimes just wonder where i would be without having those experiences.

where would i be if i listened to everyone, and waited till my junior to study abroad.

what if i didn't go to ghana

what if i went to a bigger school instead of a smaller one

what if i didn't ditch the group of people i was hanging out with freshmen year, and started hanging out with my best friends?

I am just so curious as to what my little decisions in my everyday life amount too?

how do people here at school perceive me?

how do people walking on the street perceive me?

i wish there was an app on my iPhone that could let me call God.

i really need to talk to him..

(I know I know you are thinking well pray)

yes, i do, i just need him to talk back to me.

i am being a selfish little baby..

i don't want to be patient

i don't want to search for the signs

i need him to talk to me. now please.

well, i haven't slept much lately

i have had 3 test this week.

one which ended up in tears.

i made my big decision that i had been stressing over..

i feel at peace about it..

where would i be if i didn't make that decision...

sorry for complaining..

love

MaKenna "imabigbabydramaqueen" Whitehead